Well its seems that a part at work got lost and it turned out to be my fault. The replacement cost is 500 dollars. It happened when i first checked in to this command, it was just inattention to detail on my behalf. I would have been stressed out and over the top concerned about this in the past, but I just cannot seem to muster enough energy to really care at all about it. The real trouble with me is why I dont care. RETIREMENT!!. Believe me when I say that I am just done with this job..I am sooo ready to move on. Getting sick and past it is really 75% of the reason. Being a Navyman for the last 16yrs has been a great adventure and I have loads of memories and stories..so can I go now. A 20yr retirement is important and if I have to stick it out I will..but disability is looking better and better everyday. Yeah i work for a civilian that is the antichrist..but this mess is all my own. My only question on most days is can I go home and asking Sailors that are getting ready to retire what they are going to do in retirement…When I got sick the worst thing that could possibly happen to a Sailor with my time in service..happened…rather then thinking about getting back to work and recharging my batteries I started to think WOW a way out so I can move on..I came to shore duty tired already…illness didnt help and then a different mindset took over..I dont think I am any different then someone else in my position though….just a quick (CAN I GO NOW) thought
P.S. Penelope won a star performer award at work ..for being an outstanding worker at the office…she received a medal and 200 Dollars woo hoo.