I believe one of the unique perspectives you get from illness is seeing things in a more simple light. I dont know if that makes sense the way I wrote that, but it makes sense to me. Things are not as complicated with me as they use to be. Yeah I am still a bit lazy, Penelope still says I need to get out more and get a hobbie yada yada yada. One of the things I am dealing with is weather I am going to be able to make it to my 2o yr Navy retirement. To me its a simple equation, you put your time in, if you are close to 20 they let you retire provided the stumbling block is not fault of your own i.e. Cancer. There is a great scene in Rocky Balboa where rocky tells the boxing commission “You pay the freight you should be allowed to do what you want to do”. Thats kind of how I feel..I understand the military position in that if you cant do the job we cant use you. Well I can do my job regardless of weather I can go to sea. In my line of work you run into alot of folks that think IF I CANT USE YOU THEN YOU ARE OF NO USE TO ME, but those are the folks that drink 10 cups of coffee a day, smoke like chimneys and dont know where their children are…but I still need a new hobbie dont know what though???..just a quick let me retire please thought..